Heathonist
and so the chain of horrible christmases goes on…

in case anyone has wondered why I’ve nearly vanished from the internet, it’s because I’m a depressed sack of shit. I don’t bother posting because I at least have the common decency not to complain about it to a bunch of strangers who don’t care. I’m spending this weekend on the couch with a roll of tissue and pack of marlboro lights. There’s not a goddamned soul left in this state I’ve known longer than a month. A coworker invited me to his party, but i lied and said i had plans because I was worried I’d end up hiding in the corner, sobbing into my egg nog. My family members have not returned a single phone call of mine in over 6 months since I moved out here. I came to start a new life that wasn’t overflowing with selfish assholes. I guess I got what I wanted. I’m completely alone. Not an asshole in sight. 

I want to apologize to whoever I may have made feel bad for 15 seconds by reading this, but fuck it. No apology here. Everyone I know is with the people they love today. They are eating good food. They are getting presents. They are celebrating… something. I’m counting the hours until I get to go back to work because work is the only thing I have. I deserve a rant.

This holiday fucking sucks. 

Posted 2 months ago
16 notes
  1. zesty-lo0n said: I send you my love. Drink and smoke it <3 .. My girlfriend had to work today so I drove the.. 70 miles home. The lengths women go for good gravy. .. I’d fedex you some if it would keep hon. Keep your chin up.
  2. outrenoir said: Remember that when life is shit, it can only improve. You have 2 meet new people ‘halfway’ 2 form bonds, but it gets easier, and with time maybe your family will soften - mine’s fucked 2. You deserve 2 feel. You’re never alone. You’re a brick house.
  3. timgrr said: This what the Internet is for. Come back to us. I will not unfollow you.
  4. violet-velvet-touch said: That is the absolute worst. You deserve to have a good ass life and have the most fucking fun. :[
  5. noair said: it totally sucks to read this…i thought you disappeared from the internet because you were having a damn good life. i’m kind of angry by knowing you’re not.
  6. quietbrava said: Cheers honey. I raise a scotch in your direction.
  7. theanatomyofayellowbird said: I’m really, really sorry to hear this. I hate the holidays for the most part as well. I can’t imagine how your day is going, but I hope that you can survive it and have a good new years. I hope 2012 brings you something more, something new and lovely
  8. devonpcasey said: Just a stranger here, but at least know that I hear you and if you want it, you have my empathy. I don’t know you, but I’d happily wager you deserve better times then these. It may be all I have to give you, but- Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :]
  9. bluth-banana said: I know it’s not much but I really hope things get better for you. I know you don’t know me but i’m here if you ever need a rant xx
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